A fellow blogger, Opinionated Man, asked in his blog post, The Daily Opinion – The Past, “If I could go back and change one decision what would it be and why?”
For me, that is a loaded question. If I focus on the question itself, I would say I would go back to the year I graduated high school and pick a different college to attend. I would have taken a closer look at the programs they offered and tried to understand it better.
The university I enrolled in after graduation was a private university … and it was the first university to send me a welcome packet.
The university offered the best program for the major I was interested in at that time. Regrettably, once I received that welcome packet, I didn’t consider anything else. As I reflect upon it, that decision lead me on a very different path in life. I dropped out after a few months because of certain situations I was uncomfortable with and too young to understand (a 17-year old living in the university apartments with 20-something year olds sums it up) but another part of the decision was I was disappointed in the structure and program. I was so upset I had to take English and Math and Science, AGAIN. I didn’t like the fact that it would take me a good two years, if you’re fast enough, before I could even study anything dealing with my major. I didn’t understand the higher education system in which you need to take your general education credits before you start on your major. I was crushed! I realized much later in life I would have done better at a trade school college. I never even knew they existed when I jumped on the college bandwagon!
That’s my pick if I had to choose a decision to change.
With all that said, though, the choice on whether or not to actually go through with it is a different matter. I’m not sure if I would choose to go back and change that decision. I feel experience is what makes me who I am today. I’m wiser for it, I understand the world a little better, and I like to believe I have an open-mind because of the challenges I faced. If I change my past decision, it may have led me on a similar path with different type of experiences, but it’s not certain. It may have led me to a complete different person.
I think that’s what makes these types of questions so intriguing to think about. There’s a lot of “what if”s and “could’ve, would’ve, should’ve”s. Your values and beliefs are defined by your experiences and the way you see the world. The way I choose to see it is that there are no regrets in my life, just lessons learned. And since I do believe in a higher power, I strongly believe that things happen for a reason, even though I don’t know what that reason is.